"All I wanted was some time, to make up my mind..."

Sometimes in ones life you get a day when everything is gonna change. Well, not everything everything, the minimum is always that something is gonna change. But the change is that big it unless feels like everything is changing. Top words: everything, change.

The weirdest thing is, that no one else doesn´t know it, except you. When someone says there will be a change in her/his life, we think it´s gonna be like a new job, apartment, maybe wedding or funeral. The last thing we can even imagine for a change is inner change. We have our innerlife: our thoughs, desires, dreams... personality. Who says they cannot change?

I can´t even imagine what could be the worst change ever in our innerlife. Another soul, maybe. I have seen my friends changind during their lives and I do not deny my change. You learn something every day and have new experiments which changes your mind and attitude to something.

When you realize something has changed, it doesn´t feel good. Or then it does, depending what kind of change is that. Today I whatch myself like outsider, maybe tomorrow I will be myself again. Or will that ever happen...?